Heartbroken

You know how some things that you have to do are so much harder than you ever realized they would be? I do.

I've had the privilege of sponsoring a sweet little girl named Kalkidan from Ethiopia these past 4ish years. Because of my lack of a consistent job and rising expenses, I had to call and cancel my sponsorship this morning. I was months behind on contributions and just do not have the resources to be a good, consistent sponsor.

I called Compassion this morning and the man I talked to was so nice. He suggested that I write her one last letter letting her know that I love her and that I'm always praying. I know that God will provide for her, but it doesn't do much to stop the tears.

Now, on to writing this letter. I love you, sweet girl. So much.

Helllloooooo, summer!

You know, hanging out in a vineyard. What a beautiful wedding it was!

We went to a fabulous thrift store and found these gems...

Playing around some more...

Princess party!

The whole road trip crew...

I felt like it hadn't been that long since I had updated my blog, however, it appears that a whole summer semester has passed since the last update! It's unbelievable how time tends to fly...

Summer semester was so interesting. I do not suggest trying to cram already difficult classes into 8 weeks. It is simply obnoxious. However, now it leaves the rest of the summer completely class free, so I have much to be thankful for. Speaking of thankfulness, I really feel like being thankful is what the Lord has continually been reminding me of lately.

Life has been relatively calm for me in these past few months (thank the Lord), however, it has not been that way for so many people that I care so deeply about. For about 2 weeks I just felt like life was crashing down for many of my dearest friends and it was so overwhelming. I'm a "fix-it" personality and it killed me on the inside to not be able to change the circumstances that were causing them so much pain. Before all of this happened, I had kind of lost touch with the Lord in that I was not making the effort to go deeper in my own personal journey. I'm frustrated with myself for not seeing that earlier, but I'm also so thankful that He was so present in every hard time. I was at the end of my human helping abilities, with no words left to speak to bring any comfort at all to the people that I loved. Jesus was there all along working in ways that I was never capable of in the first place. I love being reminded of that. I need to be reminded more often than I realize...

As far as everything else goes, there have been so many fun events going on lately. For instance, we had a princess party, a birthday bowling fest, a latin/chinese food and dance party, an epic road trip to GA to celebrate the wedding of the one and only Katie Nash and to have many adventures otherwise. I'll post some pictures to give a better look at all the fun.

I realize that I ask for prayer on here a lot, but here I am...going again. I am really looking for a job. I've applied at Publix and it looks like a good possibility if some positions open up in the next few weeks. I talked to a manager today and she said to come back in 2 weeks to check again, so it would be really fabulous if you could pray that something would open up in that time, or that God would open a door somewhere else.

Hope your summers are really wonderful so far! Praying that God reminds you of all there is to be thankful for this week, and that you are not quite as thick-headed as I tend to be. :)

Love,

Brit