When you ask Jesus to make you dependent on Him..

...you better believe he will follow through!

Wesley (the campus ministry that I'm involved in) is challenging us this week in several areas of our life to really give ourselves to the Lord and make ourselves dependent on Him. Let's just say it's beautiful, challenging, fruitful, sucky, and necessary all at once.

Along with the corporate things that Wesley is doing, I decided to get off of FB for a week. I seriously sat and debated my decision about that for 20 minutes or so. Hello, it was so necessary. I just want this week to be about me setting my priorities where they should be. In order to do that, I sometimes have to just totally take myself from the things of this world that distract me and then slowly allow them back into my life in reasonable amounts. I'm an all or nothing kind of girl so this "in moderation" lifestyle has never come easy to me.

Something to look forward to this weekend is Women's Retreat! I have a hard time believing that it's already upon us and I absolutely cannot wait to spend my weekend with some incredible women who love the Lord. Then...the Bahamas! I can't even believe that in a week and a half I will be on an airplane with our Freshley team on our way to do some construction work and love on some Bohemian people. It's freaking me out...in such a good way. If you want, join me in prayer that the Lord would start preparing everyone involved. He's sure to work amazing things in every heart.

Growing Up...

Currently, I'm struggling with decisions about school.

I have some options...

• Take some summer classes (if one is offered honors), then take an additional class with Internship 1 and be on track to graduate in 4 years.
• Drop honors and graduate in 4 years, no problem.
• Finish my honors classes next semester, have the summer off, and graduate in 4 1/2 years.

It's great to have options. Really, it is. I'm so blessed to even be able to go to school. It's just slightly overwhelming. I won't know if the honors class is offered until February 28th, and I have to get my internship application in by Tuesday. I'm definitely going to apply for internship because I can withdraw my application if I need to but I can't apply late.

If you want, you can join me in prayer as far as discernment goes. I'm also praying about what to do as far as grad school goes. There are even more options for that. Bah! Although choices can be overwhelming at times, I'm so thankful to have them. I'll just feel a little better when decisions have been made. My 1 (http://similarminds.com/test.html) coming out, I suppose...:)

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Lessons as of late...

I'm so in love with the ways in which the Lord is speaking to me lately

I'm learning a lot about one thing in particular...

...that Jesus can do amazing things in my heart through what's happening in other people's lives.

A couple Wesley's ago we were talking in leadership and felt like the Lord was really calling us to pray. So, we did. We had no sermon that night, just spent some time in worship and in prayer. I knew that the Holy Spirit was thick in that place, but I just wasn't "feeling" it. I'm such an emotional person and that can be a good and bad thing in my walk with Jesus. We got about halfway through the service, and then it smacked me in the face. It's not about me.

God started to gently remind me of all the things I have to be thankful for, and for the incredible season of life that He has me in at this moment. As people were getting up and sharing about their struggles, victories, brokenness, etc., I was reminded of how much community means. My purpose for that night was not to have Jesus move in my heart personally, but it was to be there for people who needed support. I'll have you know, that Jesus did end up moving in my heart, but not until I looked back and realized why I was there that night.

I'm hoping that in this season, God teaches me a lot about what it means to look at the world through His eyes. What it looks like to be there for hurting people, to devote myself to intercession, and to be thankful for His many blessings. It's sure to be an adventure!